Its been time for me to come back and post something new. Thumba thumba time aithu.. It was as if something in life had blocked me from expressing my self.. lot of thoughts do come to me.. I would like to share it ... have already drafted some blogs but i am not posting it coz it may not be liked by related people.. something about my career.. about the true me.. about god... :) :) well about my exploration of life.. hope some day have the guts enought to post it..
This was about the mail my Guru/my Boss Lalaji forwarded me.. read through it.. had lots of things that we miss out. We over look lot of small nitigrities of life where we forget to thank , forget to be in present etc etc.. This mail had some nice commandments.. how much one agrees is a different story or a issue altogether.. wanted to share the same with my loved freinds..Its just a copy and paste for the time being.. but haan.. i am gonna write something.. may be a fiction of a a non fiction including lots of stories from bharatha, zen stories.. to substantiate some of the crucial points.. More i am gonna write.. and thats a promise :)
Health:
1. Drink plenty of water.
2. Eat breakfast like a king, lunch like a prince and dinner like a beggar.
3. Eat more foods that grow on trees and plants and eat less food that is manufactured in plants.
4. Live with the 3 E's -- Energy, Enthusiasm, and Empathy.
5. Make time to practice meditation, yoga, and prayer.
6. Play more games.
7. Read more books than you did in 2008.
8. Sit in silence for at least 10 minutes each day.
9. Sleep for 7 hours.
10. Take a 10-30 minutes walk every day. And while you walk, smile.
Personality:
11. Don't compare your life to others'. You have no idea what their journey is all about.
12. Don't have negative thoughts or things you cannot control. Instead invest your energy in the positive present moment.
13. Don't over do. Keep your limits.
14. Don't take yourself so seriously. No one else does.
15. Don't waste your precious energy on gossip.
16. Dream more while you are awake.
17. Envy is a waste of time. You already have all you need.
18. Forget issues of the past. Don't remind your partner with his/her mistakes of the past. That will ruin your resent happiness.
19. Life is too short to waste time hating anyone. Don't hate others.
20. Make peace with your past so it won't spoil the present.
21. No one is in charge of your happiness except you.
22. Realize that life is a school and you are here to learn. Problems are simply part of the curriculum that appear and fade away like algebra class but the lessons you learn will last a lifetime.
23. Smile and laugh more.
24. You don't have to win every argument. Agree to disagree.
Society:
25. Call your family often.
26. Each day give something good to others.
27. Forgive everyone for everything.
28. Spend time with people over the age of 70 & under the age of 6.
29. Try to make at least three people smile each day.
30. What other people think of you is none of your business.
31. Your job won't take care of you when you are sick. Your friends will. Stay in touch.
Life:
32. Do the right thing!
33. Get rid of anything that isn't useful, beautiful or joyful..
34. GOD heals everything.
35. However good or bad a situation is, it will change.
36. No matter how you feel, get up, dress up and show up.
37. The best is yet to come.
38. When you awake alive in the morning, thank GOD for it.
39. Your Inner most is always happy. So, be happy.
Hmm hope if you can change one thing in life by reading theese 39 commandments :) it will make a lots of difference in ones life :)
Monday, September 21, 2009
Saturday, February 7, 2009
Memories.. Part 2
Well my blog alternates between something philosophical .. and some times naivity of what I was.. or still I am…
It was in kindergarten my younger aunt Kusumakka married…. It was a magnanimous gesture from my older aunt Amanekka.. who at that point of time people told had a difficult horoscope.. she told please go ahead with Kusumakkas marriage and she got married to a good business family from a small village (now quite a industrial village) … who went on to make them modern.. ( I remember she telling me .. they never used to use tooth pastes only mango leaves… the ways of their dressing.. etc).. she was very young then..
I vividly remember her marriage one snap shot of it in my mind.. where I wailed and wailed stating that “ Kusumakka pepepe nakka .. (Kusumakka don’t marry… the word pepepe is how as a kid I called marriage in Konkani… though the real word is “ Valdika”. I some how felt I lost her for eternity…. Well doesn’t mean that I did not have my mom with me.. she was there.. who became a prominent part of my life after even Amanekka married when I was in 2nd Standard…
Well I have lots to tell about my aunts.. who showered me love .. along with my paternal Grandma… lots and lots… I miss my granny today a lot.. she is kind of a very strong personality.. some part of which her daughters and grand daughters inherited… I had told my granma.. some day I will write about you.. though.. I have some specific instances about her….
Amanekka did marry … after two years… well some how I do wonder what she saw in my bhavaji .. that she agreed… …. He was quite old for her..with all beard and stuff… I remember chandu bappa weeping and my dad weeping… but my bhavaji loves amanekka a a lot… these days he respects her for what she is… both are in the process of goin towards divinity…. they still make a wonderful couple.. She told me recently.. well gondu .. though I loved u kids.. I had to have a husbands house…. A lady unmarried in those days…. Didn’t have much value in the house hold or society.. Such a wonderful lady.. some times amanekka I feel sorry for fighting with u…..yours was more of a selfless love… for u know what…. You are selfless.. gave us so much.. hope I could some how repay you back…well I have lots to tell… well.. with your permission only I would blog…
I am still like elder son for kusumakka.. though she is flowing with her own kids life.. I am still part of those kids.. they too treat me like elder brother… Kitta and putta.. (raghu and ravi..)
Have lots to share about my life with amanekka, kusumakka, chandu bappa, Bapamma… surekha, pakanna, mhave… well everyone has contributed in my life… My Dad who is a tower of strength till day and my ever demure Mom….whom I owe a lot.. and my sweet sis Neethu…well guys I want to write more about my life with u.. if u permit… My life is a story by itself.. with several substories which spring up even before I was born… ie from the days of my bappamma.. who was a role model for all of us.. and all the grand kids loved her for what she was capable off and for whatever she stood for in those difficult period for her daughters and daughter in laws..
It was in kindergarten my younger aunt Kusumakka married…. It was a magnanimous gesture from my older aunt Amanekka.. who at that point of time people told had a difficult horoscope.. she told please go ahead with Kusumakkas marriage and she got married to a good business family from a small village (now quite a industrial village) … who went on to make them modern.. ( I remember she telling me .. they never used to use tooth pastes only mango leaves… the ways of their dressing.. etc).. she was very young then..
I vividly remember her marriage one snap shot of it in my mind.. where I wailed and wailed stating that “ Kusumakka pepepe nakka .. (Kusumakka don’t marry… the word pepepe is how as a kid I called marriage in Konkani… though the real word is “ Valdika”. I some how felt I lost her for eternity…. Well doesn’t mean that I did not have my mom with me.. she was there.. who became a prominent part of my life after even Amanekka married when I was in 2nd Standard…
Well I have lots to tell about my aunts.. who showered me love .. along with my paternal Grandma… lots and lots… I miss my granny today a lot.. she is kind of a very strong personality.. some part of which her daughters and grand daughters inherited… I had told my granma.. some day I will write about you.. though.. I have some specific instances about her….
Amanekka did marry … after two years… well some how I do wonder what she saw in my bhavaji .. that she agreed… …. He was quite old for her..with all beard and stuff… I remember chandu bappa weeping and my dad weeping… but my bhavaji loves amanekka a a lot… these days he respects her for what she is… both are in the process of goin towards divinity…. they still make a wonderful couple.. She told me recently.. well gondu .. though I loved u kids.. I had to have a husbands house…. A lady unmarried in those days…. Didn’t have much value in the house hold or society.. Such a wonderful lady.. some times amanekka I feel sorry for fighting with u…..yours was more of a selfless love… for u know what…. You are selfless.. gave us so much.. hope I could some how repay you back…well I have lots to tell… well.. with your permission only I would blog…
I am still like elder son for kusumakka.. though she is flowing with her own kids life.. I am still part of those kids.. they too treat me like elder brother… Kitta and putta.. (raghu and ravi..)
Have lots to share about my life with amanekka, kusumakka, chandu bappa, Bapamma… surekha, pakanna, mhave… well everyone has contributed in my life… My Dad who is a tower of strength till day and my ever demure Mom….whom I owe a lot.. and my sweet sis Neethu…well guys I want to write more about my life with u.. if u permit… My life is a story by itself.. with several substories which spring up even before I was born… ie from the days of my bappamma.. who was a role model for all of us.. and all the grand kids loved her for what she was capable off and for whatever she stood for in those difficult period for her daughters and daughter in laws..
Memories……(Part 1)
Memory and me… well have loads of memories which some times just dawn upon me selectively these days… well I remember some one did say that memories are selective
I do miss my child hood moms……Amanekka n kusumakka.. my chechis or aunts whatever you call them….. the love bestowed by them .. and chandubappa.. my uncle…
How funny it was when in nursery Ms Desa teacher announced exams…… I never new what was the implications of exams.. Silent n Demure kid which I was…my aunts had prepared me and sent me to the nursery …. I write the exams…… and then I see every one giving their answer papers to the teacher… well !! I thought well this paper I have brought which my aunts purchased paying 10 ps per ruled thanv (two sheets make one thanv.. and 24 thanv makes one rim of paper)… so my simple thought was that I will take this back to my house and did so….. My aunts where initially shocked and then slowly tampered with my answer paper and asked me to give it to the teacher since she would give me back …. Ms Desa teacher was not amused.. she called my dad and told it looks like some body has overwritten.. dad being a simple postman was emabarassed….
I am kind of scared of Desa teacher.. I was scared even during primaries and then after I completed my CA she retired and was staying near my house in a tenanted house.. I was kind scared whenever I talked to her.. I dunno why it was so.. was it due to the way she spoke to me or for the guilt getting 95 out of 100 for the tampered answer paper .. or was the two spanking she gave me during my senior kindergarten years…. Well he hehehe !!!! true… I got nice spanking once I slept of in the class… I was so naïve… but I loved Ms Kalyani teacher who used to tell nice stories during pt period (play time period during rainy season) or during our social studies classes which she used to take up….
My teachers were Ms Prabha Madam (who went on to be the Head Mistress for long time I heard), Ms Kalyani teacher, Ms Ieda, Mrs Muktha, Ms Kamalini teacher, Ms Prema teacher even the Ayas (attenders) Radha and the other ones name I forgot now.. (getting old u see)…..
I vividly remember my primary school days our teachers… all were ladies and very nice… except for the head master Mr Kukkillaya till I was in 3rd Standard.. We used to call him Bull dog.. ( I am sorry sir… wherever u are.. those were the days when we never so innocent and used to emulate our seniors..)… He was a huge old personality with his cheeks drooping down… But he loved kids… he never punished by hitting or so.. he used to scold.. Infact looking back .. I wud like to be like him some day.. a part of a system where I can mould the minds.. where I could write as to whatever I have experienced.. the people .. the circumstances.. the defeats the victories… the period of ups.. and the downs.. ( not the depressions… which i never want any kid to know or go through)... how to see the beauty of life... and how to love n respect people and treasure what we have..
I do miss my child hood moms……Amanekka n kusumakka.. my chechis or aunts whatever you call them….. the love bestowed by them .. and chandubappa.. my uncle…
How funny it was when in nursery Ms Desa teacher announced exams…… I never new what was the implications of exams.. Silent n Demure kid which I was…my aunts had prepared me and sent me to the nursery …. I write the exams…… and then I see every one giving their answer papers to the teacher… well !! I thought well this paper I have brought which my aunts purchased paying 10 ps per ruled thanv (two sheets make one thanv.. and 24 thanv makes one rim of paper)… so my simple thought was that I will take this back to my house and did so….. My aunts where initially shocked and then slowly tampered with my answer paper and asked me to give it to the teacher since she would give me back …. Ms Desa teacher was not amused.. she called my dad and told it looks like some body has overwritten.. dad being a simple postman was emabarassed….
I am kind of scared of Desa teacher.. I was scared even during primaries and then after I completed my CA she retired and was staying near my house in a tenanted house.. I was kind scared whenever I talked to her.. I dunno why it was so.. was it due to the way she spoke to me or for the guilt getting 95 out of 100 for the tampered answer paper .. or was the two spanking she gave me during my senior kindergarten years…. Well he hehehe !!!! true… I got nice spanking once I slept of in the class… I was so naïve… but I loved Ms Kalyani teacher who used to tell nice stories during pt period (play time period during rainy season) or during our social studies classes which she used to take up….
My teachers were Ms Prabha Madam (who went on to be the Head Mistress for long time I heard), Ms Kalyani teacher, Ms Ieda, Mrs Muktha, Ms Kamalini teacher, Ms Prema teacher even the Ayas (attenders) Radha and the other ones name I forgot now.. (getting old u see)…..
I vividly remember my primary school days our teachers… all were ladies and very nice… except for the head master Mr Kukkillaya till I was in 3rd Standard.. We used to call him Bull dog.. ( I am sorry sir… wherever u are.. those were the days when we never so innocent and used to emulate our seniors..)… He was a huge old personality with his cheeks drooping down… But he loved kids… he never punished by hitting or so.. he used to scold.. Infact looking back .. I wud like to be like him some day.. a part of a system where I can mould the minds.. where I could write as to whatever I have experienced.. the people .. the circumstances.. the defeats the victories… the period of ups.. and the downs.. ( not the depressions… which i never want any kid to know or go through)... how to see the beauty of life... and how to love n respect people and treasure what we have..
Monday, January 26, 2009
Forgive and let your self forgiven
Well the heading of this blog page looks like one more philosophical discussion or thought.. well definitely people would tell the same if they have read other of ma blogs (Meta physical with generalities )
We do mistakes in life and repent.. and go on repenting … some times burdening the present with the thoughts of the past.. we refuse to let the pains go… What we forget is to forgive ourselves for our mistakes.. after all we are human.. rather than repenting often, I believe that we should learn from those mistakes of ours in the past. The best solution sometimes when we have hurt some people is to call them up and apologise if they are amenable or if ego sometimes overrides us we can apologise with ourselves or with holy one.. I was going thru the net and came across one shloka.. I am just pasting it for those who want to go through..
OM Namo`stute Mahayogin Prapannamanusadhi Mam Yatha Twachcharanam Bhoje Ratih Syadanapayini
Meaning : Salutation to thee, O great Yogi! Pray direct me that have fallen at Thy feet, so that I may find unfailing delight at Thy lotus feet.
This is a shloka of self surrender with the holy one , which needs to be repeated with a pure heart free of personal desires.
This gives us humility … infact I have just started it… I also have hurt people knowingly or unknowingly I would take this opportunity to beg for forgiveness again … to my amanekka, my dad, my wife , my friends, my prodigies and the persons whom I have interacted with over a period of time though intentionally or unintentionally due to circumstances or to the people with whom I didn’t standby fully the way they wanted ….
I have also forgiven those who have hurt me over a period of time. Though the same was a difficult process….I believed they may have hurt me for the reason known best to them due the circumstances they were in… Forgiving them helps me to lose out the baggage I carry. This has helped me in a long way coz my pains have become less.
Quote from Bible
" Then Jesus said, "Father forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing." And as they divided His garments, they cast lots. Now the people stood by observing and the rulers among them were also deriding Him, saying, 'He saved others; let Him save Himself, if this is the Christ, the chosen of God.' "(Luke 23:34-35)
Jesus was aware that God will offer EVERY person, in His own time, the chance to fully repent and receive eternal life. In what the Bible calls the second resurrection, those who killed Christ will have their spiritual blindness taken away from their hearts and given a chance to repent and truly obey God.
Quote from Bhagavad- gita
Forgiveness is godly. Forgiveness is a virtue. Forgiveness is holiness. Forgiveness is powerful. Forgiveness is peace.
Ancient Hindu scripture Bhagavad-Gita says, “Develop purity, forgiveness, vigor, patience, a good will, and avoid pride—these are the riches of the person who is born for heaven."
Mantra for Forgiveness
( Quoted from one website during browsing)
Here is a shloka you can say last thing at night:
Kara charana krutam vaak kaayajam karmajam vaa
shravan naya najam vaa maanasam vaaparaadham
vihita maavihitam vaa sarvametat shamasva
jai jai karunabdhe shri maha deva shambho.
This is the meaning :
Whatever I have done with my hands or feet, or speech, my body or my actions,
Whatever I have heard or seen, or thought, all my mistakes,
Whether knowingly or unknowingly, please forgive them all,
Great all forgiving God, Mahadeva Shambhu.
What I am trying to say is let us forgive ourselves first for our mistakes done knowingly or unknowingly or for the mistakes done by us or forgive our friends , relatives and enemies for the pain that was inflicted by their actions.. let us not carry it.. It helps us to treasure the present and give justice to our loved ones. But when you forgive or say sorry do mean it… let it come from your heart.. then you will experience the bliss of a light heart.. but don’t apologise for a wrong not done by you.. you would know that.. as your heart will help you to judge.. coz we cannot lose the self esteem as there is a god in us too…
We do mistakes in life and repent.. and go on repenting … some times burdening the present with the thoughts of the past.. we refuse to let the pains go… What we forget is to forgive ourselves for our mistakes.. after all we are human.. rather than repenting often, I believe that we should learn from those mistakes of ours in the past. The best solution sometimes when we have hurt some people is to call them up and apologise if they are amenable or if ego sometimes overrides us we can apologise with ourselves or with holy one.. I was going thru the net and came across one shloka.. I am just pasting it for those who want to go through..
OM Namo`stute Mahayogin Prapannamanusadhi Mam Yatha Twachcharanam Bhoje Ratih Syadanapayini
Meaning : Salutation to thee, O great Yogi! Pray direct me that have fallen at Thy feet, so that I may find unfailing delight at Thy lotus feet.
This is a shloka of self surrender with the holy one , which needs to be repeated with a pure heart free of personal desires.
This gives us humility … infact I have just started it… I also have hurt people knowingly or unknowingly I would take this opportunity to beg for forgiveness again … to my amanekka, my dad, my wife , my friends, my prodigies and the persons whom I have interacted with over a period of time though intentionally or unintentionally due to circumstances or to the people with whom I didn’t standby fully the way they wanted ….
I have also forgiven those who have hurt me over a period of time. Though the same was a difficult process….I believed they may have hurt me for the reason known best to them due the circumstances they were in… Forgiving them helps me to lose out the baggage I carry. This has helped me in a long way coz my pains have become less.
Quote from Bible
" Then Jesus said, "Father forgive them, for they do not know what they are doing." And as they divided His garments, they cast lots. Now the people stood by observing and the rulers among them were also deriding Him, saying, 'He saved others; let Him save Himself, if this is the Christ, the chosen of God.' "(Luke 23:34-35)
Jesus was aware that God will offer EVERY person, in His own time, the chance to fully repent and receive eternal life. In what the Bible calls the second resurrection, those who killed Christ will have their spiritual blindness taken away from their hearts and given a chance to repent and truly obey God.
Quote from Bhagavad- gita
Forgiveness is godly. Forgiveness is a virtue. Forgiveness is holiness. Forgiveness is powerful. Forgiveness is peace.
Ancient Hindu scripture Bhagavad-Gita says, “Develop purity, forgiveness, vigor, patience, a good will, and avoid pride—these are the riches of the person who is born for heaven."
Mantra for Forgiveness
( Quoted from one website during browsing)
Here is a shloka you can say last thing at night:
Kara charana krutam vaak kaayajam karmajam vaa
shravan naya najam vaa maanasam vaaparaadham
vihita maavihitam vaa sarvametat shamasva
jai jai karunabdhe shri maha deva shambho.
This is the meaning :
Whatever I have done with my hands or feet, or speech, my body or my actions,
Whatever I have heard or seen, or thought, all my mistakes,
Whether knowingly or unknowingly, please forgive them all,
Great all forgiving God, Mahadeva Shambhu.
What I am trying to say is let us forgive ourselves first for our mistakes done knowingly or unknowingly or for the mistakes done by us or forgive our friends , relatives and enemies for the pain that was inflicted by their actions.. let us not carry it.. It helps us to treasure the present and give justice to our loved ones. But when you forgive or say sorry do mean it… let it come from your heart.. then you will experience the bliss of a light heart.. but don’t apologise for a wrong not done by you.. you would know that.. as your heart will help you to judge.. coz we cannot lose the self esteem as there is a god in us too…
Thursday, January 15, 2009
?????? some thoughts??????
Sitting in the bangalore airport now ... i was wondering how vulnerable we were for circumstances that were beyong our control... as my freind Bhanu rightly put it across.. is it the way that god tests us... or is it the way god grounds us... and make us understand reality....
The principle of my life always was to accept the circumstances and the persons as they are and accomodate... even for that matter when there were somethings beyond my control i stopped worrying about them... its not the same sometimes... when u fear that you may lose something.. the fear factor of losing something is very difficult to be Won across... falling in the pit fall and gettin tested is one thing... but waiting for it to happen is the other... It may so happen that the pit fall may never come.... but we think about the future and lose the present....
I strongly have started believing that love the ones that love you .. give them happiness.. and treasure the present... dont take anything forgranted in a idyllic life... having a idle life with small happiness is a bliss....
The belief of the almighty...Ganesha , Jesus will always help you ... he is always there.. testing you and making you remind.. you are not everything what you think off... your achievement is not your own .. you cannot over estimate yourself.. and when we go up.. forgetting our base ... he pulls you down and reminds u... so be humble.. offer your success to him.. and tell him.. whatever is mine is yours.. and whatever success i got always is with your support whenever u pray... it helps you to be grounded.. and he wud love it... beg him humility and happiness to the family... beg something for you rarely.. and definetely he gives you... prayer has great strengths... pray...
Those who feel i am more general than specific... the thoughts are general... and specifics are mine:)
well for those who love me ... please remember i love you all.. and i value what ur love does for me... and especially to my partner(wifey)... i am telling in a public blog that i love you a lot :)
The principle of my life always was to accept the circumstances and the persons as they are and accomodate... even for that matter when there were somethings beyond my control i stopped worrying about them... its not the same sometimes... when u fear that you may lose something.. the fear factor of losing something is very difficult to be Won across... falling in the pit fall and gettin tested is one thing... but waiting for it to happen is the other... It may so happen that the pit fall may never come.... but we think about the future and lose the present....
I strongly have started believing that love the ones that love you .. give them happiness.. and treasure the present... dont take anything forgranted in a idyllic life... having a idle life with small happiness is a bliss....
The belief of the almighty...Ganesha , Jesus will always help you ... he is always there.. testing you and making you remind.. you are not everything what you think off... your achievement is not your own .. you cannot over estimate yourself.. and when we go up.. forgetting our base ... he pulls you down and reminds u... so be humble.. offer your success to him.. and tell him.. whatever is mine is yours.. and whatever success i got always is with your support whenever u pray... it helps you to be grounded.. and he wud love it... beg him humility and happiness to the family... beg something for you rarely.. and definetely he gives you... prayer has great strengths... pray...
Those who feel i am more general than specific... the thoughts are general... and specifics are mine:)
well for those who love me ... please remember i love you all.. and i value what ur love does for me... and especially to my partner(wifey)... i am telling in a public blog that i love you a lot :)
Saturday, January 3, 2009
Fate of a Star
I did not have any great plans for the new year. Plan was to go back to the house, have a sober evening with ma family with good sea food-home cooked. I was dropped near Jayanagar Complex from my colleague that day. As usual having the panipuri that I always gobble up, I moved on to catch a rickshaw back to my place. Well recession did have effect upon me (less of rickshaws and more of Volvo busses these days… every rupee saved is a rupee gained) well they say when you cannot increase your income reduce costs… wud love to deliberate upon the same some day on to ma philosophy on spendings..
Well lemme get back to the stuff that I wanted to talk about…I stopped a rick to my place the driver as usual demanded 10 Rs above the meter. The idea was reach early to the house and I agreed… People are always interesting to me.. the way they think, the way they react or respond…. I struck a conversation with the rick guy (I do virtually with every driver usually may be it makes me understand about being humble)… he was basically a sound technician working in TV serials on daily wages .. it seemed he didn’t have any work for ten days and he was back on to the rick… The wages were decent enough to run his house along with his wife and three children… He told he was making his ends meet in these days.. and the business of auto whenever he runs on spare time is dull…..and he suddenly opened up stating that it was his “FATE” that brought him here… otherwise he would have been some where else…
Inquisitive about people as always… (my friends say that’s bad..) I probed him more… and you know he asked me how many movies from India has been nominated for Oscars and I said handful like Mother India, Salam Bombay and Lagaan… ( I felt like I was being questioned in a quiz show..hosted by a rick driver ) and he asked whether I saw the movie Salaam Bombay that released in 1988…well I was 13 or so then I told him.. but I have seen some snippets in the tv then..
“Shafiq Sayed” he said.. the child actor did I know him.. I said I have faint memories… he grinned and said.. I am him… I was dumbstruck…. He says doesn’t it look funny…. He is driving the rick now…he continued.. its impossible to believe.. but I acted in one more movie called “patang” in 1994….. I was intrigued… directed by Gautham Ghosh.. with Ompuri, Shabana azmi….Shatrughan Sinha were his co stars..
I asked him .. what r u doing here.. He just smiled…. And said ‘Fate’… he was telling about the time when he got his national award for Best Child Actor for Salam Bombay…the accolades.. the hotel he stayed for three days in the Capital…. The times when he did not know the etiquette of how to eat in the hotel.. the days of press conferences….
He said that I have seen worser days.. where he tried to end his life couple of times… I asked what about the people who took him up like Mira Nair.. isn’t he in touch with them.. he tells that they don’t remember… he told about the Salaam Balak trust..that was set up for the street children after Salaam Bombay.. the money of around 5-6 million USD (his figures) Mira Nair earned… the remuneration of Rs 15,000 he earned where he got around 12,500 at the end of the movie.. net of advance payments he had taken over the period of movie.. couldn’t deliberate much with him.. but still he wanted to script a movie.. he told he has studied only till third standard.. his english was good when he was talking … he told ‘I cannot write much though in English…but I want to direct movies… or script for the movies.. my life story itself is a story by itself…. ‘ he had given his script to some writer from Gujarath a bob cut lady.. he didn’t seem to remember her name… I told him.. please make it a point to record his own story in a Dictaphone or such recording device over a period of his time.. and then go to a author.. hope he does that.. he may do well for himself with his story.. might be a interesting look into those child stars who faded…. People might really want to know the other side of the silver screen of these stars.. and know why they fade.. might be the filmmakers who make money may think of these people in a different vien…
The only luck factor he said is that he is staying in a small house with a hall and kitchen owned by his mother … and one of his brother was a cameraman.. in employment on monthly rolls…..
He told that I had taught in NSD for some time on acting too..
At the end he didn’t want to take that 10 Rs over and above the meter that he had asked for when we reached near our house.. it was around 20-25 mins that we spoke from the time I got on to the rick including the time I spent after alighting from the rick…I checked on the net his pic as a child star in Salam Bombay… The smile he had was the same…. I couldn’t take the snap since it was dark and I had a very basic phone with not good picture quality that I purchased recently….
I only hope that he gets his due soon.. and I wished him happiness…and a eventful and happening new year….
Well it was some evening for me… ‘Evening with a Star’…. with a person like you and me known by millions of people at one point of time…
(PS: Well for those who have not heard about that movie.. you will get a details of the plot in this link http://www.bhattivideo.se/filmer/salambombay.htm )
Well lemme get back to the stuff that I wanted to talk about…I stopped a rick to my place the driver as usual demanded 10 Rs above the meter. The idea was reach early to the house and I agreed… People are always interesting to me.. the way they think, the way they react or respond…. I struck a conversation with the rick guy (I do virtually with every driver usually may be it makes me understand about being humble)… he was basically a sound technician working in TV serials on daily wages .. it seemed he didn’t have any work for ten days and he was back on to the rick… The wages were decent enough to run his house along with his wife and three children… He told he was making his ends meet in these days.. and the business of auto whenever he runs on spare time is dull…..and he suddenly opened up stating that it was his “FATE” that brought him here… otherwise he would have been some where else…
Inquisitive about people as always… (my friends say that’s bad..) I probed him more… and you know he asked me how many movies from India has been nominated for Oscars and I said handful like Mother India, Salam Bombay and Lagaan… ( I felt like I was being questioned in a quiz show..hosted by a rick driver ) and he asked whether I saw the movie Salaam Bombay that released in 1988…well I was 13 or so then I told him.. but I have seen some snippets in the tv then..
“Shafiq Sayed” he said.. the child actor did I know him.. I said I have faint memories… he grinned and said.. I am him… I was dumbstruck…. He says doesn’t it look funny…. He is driving the rick now…he continued.. its impossible to believe.. but I acted in one more movie called “patang” in 1994….. I was intrigued… directed by Gautham Ghosh.. with Ompuri, Shabana azmi….Shatrughan Sinha were his co stars..
I asked him .. what r u doing here.. He just smiled…. And said ‘Fate’… he was telling about the time when he got his national award for Best Child Actor for Salam Bombay…the accolades.. the hotel he stayed for three days in the Capital…. The times when he did not know the etiquette of how to eat in the hotel.. the days of press conferences….
He said that I have seen worser days.. where he tried to end his life couple of times… I asked what about the people who took him up like Mira Nair.. isn’t he in touch with them.. he tells that they don’t remember… he told about the Salaam Balak trust..that was set up for the street children after Salaam Bombay.. the money of around 5-6 million USD (his figures) Mira Nair earned… the remuneration of Rs 15,000 he earned where he got around 12,500 at the end of the movie.. net of advance payments he had taken over the period of movie.. couldn’t deliberate much with him.. but still he wanted to script a movie.. he told he has studied only till third standard.. his english was good when he was talking … he told ‘I cannot write much though in English…but I want to direct movies… or script for the movies.. my life story itself is a story by itself…. ‘ he had given his script to some writer from Gujarath a bob cut lady.. he didn’t seem to remember her name… I told him.. please make it a point to record his own story in a Dictaphone or such recording device over a period of his time.. and then go to a author.. hope he does that.. he may do well for himself with his story.. might be a interesting look into those child stars who faded…. People might really want to know the other side of the silver screen of these stars.. and know why they fade.. might be the filmmakers who make money may think of these people in a different vien…
The only luck factor he said is that he is staying in a small house with a hall and kitchen owned by his mother … and one of his brother was a cameraman.. in employment on monthly rolls…..
He told that I had taught in NSD for some time on acting too..
At the end he didn’t want to take that 10 Rs over and above the meter that he had asked for when we reached near our house.. it was around 20-25 mins that we spoke from the time I got on to the rick including the time I spent after alighting from the rick…I checked on the net his pic as a child star in Salam Bombay… The smile he had was the same…. I couldn’t take the snap since it was dark and I had a very basic phone with not good picture quality that I purchased recently….
I only hope that he gets his due soon.. and I wished him happiness…and a eventful and happening new year….
Well it was some evening for me… ‘Evening with a Star’…. with a person like you and me known by millions of people at one point of time…
(PS: Well for those who have not heard about that movie.. you will get a details of the plot in this link http://www.bhattivideo.se/filmer/salambombay.htm )
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